I DID IT !!!!

 
Last month I sat down and made a list of about 8 goals to accomplish before the end of 2010. One of those goals was to complete a full draft of a single monologue, just 1. At the present time I have about 4 or 5 that I've begun but I haven't completed, they aren't ready for anyone to look at or to be performed. The other day I was cleaning and picked up my journal book that I'd been writing in. I stared at it for a moment, just kind of took a second. You know when you're in the middle of a project and you stop to work on something else.....you keep meaning to go back to that project but something always comes up. So when you finally come back to it....you have this moment, this realization that you have purposely kind of left this project because of ....maybe fear. At least, that's why I think I've had an extended pause from my writing project.

In this moment with my book in hand, I realized I was nervous to open it. I wasn't sure I wanted to continue pursuing this dream of my mine, wasn't sure if I could actualize it. *deep breath*...but I decided, I love theater and appreciate creativity, even my own. So I opened it and was pleasantly surprised. I really LIKED what I had written, it was pretty damn good! (at least I thought so).

I read through each page with a fresh desire to write, so I did. As these new creative juices and energy flowed through my fingertips I couldn't stop. With each word I became more and more excited, more and more inspired. Roughly 2:30am I silently stared at the pages 1...2.....3....4....5....about five seconds passed and I realized I had completed my first monologue, I'd achieved one of my goals! Of course I had to do a reading and thankfully my friend was awake to be my guinea pig. MY.....FIRST.....PIECE. *exhale*

I'm proud to say, I DID IT!